crazy life. crazy love.

i got crazy life since i born here in this crazy world!!
so hard to have a parents who so strict. I thought, when i got to legal age. .
i can do what i want but I'm wrong. Nothing's happened, they still restricting!
i can't blame them, they just protecting me but i want to give me the time to
be happy and my teenage life! [kahit sandali lang]
so hard to have a parents like them because they're the only one can decide
what's good for me. They not even think that I cant breath easily. I'm so tired!
maybe this is my world and for 18 years, I cant imagined that i passed it.
Para rin naman sakin. go na lang!


i learned how to be love and to be hurt too.
so hard to find someone who can understand you, and who can makes you happy.
I love someone but I'm not sure if he loves me.
i think he's not serious. He always make me disappointed.
i want to give up but its so hard to do, lalo na napamahal na talaga sakin ng totoo.
Hindi ko alam kung naiintindihan niya but i think he cant undrstand me.
hindi niya inisip kung may magawa man siyang hakbang, masasaktan ba ako!
actually, it so easy to tell that you love the person but you cant do any ways.
di ba nga sabi nila... if you love someone, do your best to make her happy and to
notice that you're sincere. mahirap ba gawin yun? :((
i don't know what to do. hope to all my friends here, can help me to release this pain that
i've got!!!!! so hard to accept the fact!!!!
maybe i need to fight this situation! ang hirap kasi maging mahina ang luob, di ko alam hanggang kailan mangyayari `to sa buhay ko. nag papaka tanga ko!!!
i really love him. i hopw he love me too. [real love me] :(

jesus christ! eerr. .

Been busy this past few days. so kapagod!
last last week [May.15] we went to makati city at my aunties condo to celebrate her birthday and her daughter too. sinabay na din that time our summer reunion kaso di lahat pumunta, pero ok lang kasi solo namin ang tsibog. hahahahaha! we met a guy who's tito paul's brother. he so handsome but i don't care about him. haha! he always looked up us [me and my sister]. Kaso hindi talaga kami nagka kwentuhan since umalis na kami.

nung pauwi na kami, sumukay kami ng taxi to station of MRT.
nung nandun kami, naabutan kami ng rush hour! super dami ng humans! :D
siniksik talaga nila sarili nila sa luob ng train parang bahala na kung masaktan.
tagal ng pag iintay namin for the next arrival [naks!]. tapos nung dumating na, grabe! para kong pulubi. . haha! lalo na't petit ako, feel na feel ko ang pagiging kawawa ko. my sister was protecting me not to hit someone na nag kakasingitan na. finally, nakapasok na din kami but were like sardines inside it. haha! malapit pa ko sa pintuan ng train. bawat station, super dumadami na mga humans na sumasakay, super sikip na. ang ingay pa namin kc tawa ng tawa mga kasama ko. nung medyo mag katabi n kami ng kapatid ko, there's a guy at my back. . grabe!!! [hahahaha. saka ko na alng ii kkwento.]
pag dating sa Quezon Ave. . napaiyak ako. . kasi may naka encounter ako na di kanais nais even my sister. [that time also] sa nangyaring yun parang ayaw ko na sumakay sa train pag puno.
takot na ko.super galit si mama nun. haayss!



But any ways, finally! nag kausap na kami. mabait naman siguro siya.
maya ulit gabi usap daw kami ulit. we miss each other!
I can't wait our group date. hehehe!

happy, just today!

I'm glad yesterday in the midnight, i checked my contacts at yahoo messanger if he's online na. . pero di pa rin pala. di ako nawalan ng pag asa, i still be patient to wait him and finally. . he onlined!
we fixed our problems, he's been busy this past few days because they have there gig's.
they still have it and i know there so tired but they need to do that for exposing there selves! :D
but its okay, i understand him but i hope later he remember that he need to text me as he said to me last night. I miss him so much. [i talking about the guy who makes me happy every single minute :D]
I decided to meet him on June. 15 2009.
I can't wait that time. :D
I'm with my friends and he bring also his friend.
In short, that's a group date. I never dating to guy that just only me, i need a chaperons. hahaha! SAFETY FIRST!
hope it will be a successful boding for us. :D


Thank you to all my friends here and sorry for not choosing your date picked for me. I appreciate your cooperation. Love you all! mwuah!



this is for now. thank you :D

to all my friends here :)

Choose a date for me, what will be the perfect. Please?
[just don't ask me why :D]

JUNE 12, 2009 or JUNE 15, 2009? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ? ?

Thank you to your cooperation my dearest friends :)

i don't know what to do.

i woke up early morning. this is the day to finish my clearance for transferring but sad to say, may four (4) pang hindi napipirmahan kaya balik na naman bukas with my bestfriend.. Jorlan (thanks so much to him). I hope tomorrow, nandun na mga guro n kaylangan ko.

haaiissst. . I'm thinking of him every sec, every minute and every hour. I'm still confused, i didn't know if he's telling the truth that he love's me. Wala akong napapansin na sincerity sakaniya or any ways para magkausap kami. Maybe I need to give up na, umaasa ako sa wala. I hate myself! I have a boyfriend and he loves me so much.
Madam was right! I need to fovus myself to a person who loving me so much and kilala ko na talaga.
This is not right! I'll give up! haaissst.

Anyways. .I wanna thank you to My Madam (Bhamba) for giving me an award. :D
[Louvyouh madam! hehe. . .]



soo. . i giving this award to Charmoii, Tash, Kristina, and Thesh

thank you.

i would like to thank you to all my friends here, to drop a comment to my latest post.
Hope you never tired of dropping it.

I will forget that guy and focus my love to my loving boyfriend and Ms. Bhamba
was right! I know better my boyfriend than that guy. I will stop this feeling
to that guy, he always hurting my sensitive heart.
Thank you Madam.

my stupidity been run to my heart through my mind!
at last, my friends are here to saved me! thank you so much!
I'm so confused that time, i realized that its just an infatuation feelings and that's natural.
di na kc kami nagkikita nag boyfriend and i know that was not the way to do that.

bye :D

soo happy this day :)

I'm so happy this day. Even though I'm sad while ago because of my problem to my boyfriend, there's a guy who's always there to make me happy and honestly he always completing my day.
I wish that he's always by my side, no matter what happen. He's so sweet and nothing to find out too. I know, this is not good to feel like this to a guy na di ko kilala ng lubos and its not good to a girl like me, who have a boyfriend but I'm in love with that guy and I can't hide it! Hope that guy is honest to me. I dont want to hurt him, so i will do my best to make him happy too.

Thank you Mister. :)

Touched si ako!

i wanna THANK YOU to my dearest Madam [bhamba].
She gave me a cherry graphics and I'm surprised of it.

Babawi ako madam!!! :D puntahan kita sa campus niyo.
reresbakan kita. hahahahahaha! mwuah!

grabe this day.
i went to my school to finished my clearance.
[di ko pa rin natatapos.]
bad day. di ko napa sign sa prof ko coz she's busy.
may demo kc. kaya i need to go back on
Monday. Hopefully, matapos n lahat.

sana tuloy na rin pagkalipat ng besfriend ko para
classmate kami at same shed. sana.

Wanna be with them? hehe.

Why some persons are trying to destroy what you are?
Let say its just they're insecure. But i know that its not
only the reason.

If you hate someone because your friend hate's her,
and your friend tells about why. .
it doesn't mean you need to trust what she says because
she's your friend or a best friend.
you must know the side of others why they doing that
to your friend. . not accusing them at once.

Some friends are really hate your other friend because
"hindi ka lang niya trip." but why they need to sympathize
with? ? ?
Bakit kaylangan p?
kung pakikisama ang pinag uusapan, nandun na yun pero
hindi lagi na i approve ang mga sinasabi, di ba?

I'm telling it to you cause i already encountered this
kind of situation.

so impatient!

so tried this day!!!
nag papirma ako sa mga professors ko for my transferring.
But more of them was not there.
what will i do? kasi some of them sa pasukan pa talaga
papasok.. huhuhuhuhu.
pwede bang sa pasukan na din?

You're Always in Our Hearts!

Yesterday, my Auntie informed us that our Lolo Locao was died.
It caused by more complications and high blood. :(
I looked up my mom and i saw a tears falling in her cheeks.
I'm so sad when looking at her crying.
She said to me that Lolo Locao was the one who helped them when
my Lolo Antero died since they're young.
I understand her. I comforting her until she slept.

I already met Lolo Locao when we had get together in there house
at Paranaque and its Christmas Season.
*Side of my mom.(Chinese Blood. In Chinese, Locao means Helper, Brave and Patient.)

Tomorrow, after lunch..
we will visit in Arlington Memorial Chapels, Araneta Ave. Quezon City.
But my Auntie said, at the same time..
we need to pass by to our Grandmothers house.

100 Things About Me :)

01. Name: Joanna Christine Arnaiz Gajardo.

02. Nicknames: Joanna, Joan, Anna, Christine, Chris, Tine.
03. Status: Single.
04. Age: 18 years old.
05. Male or female: Female.
06. Grade school: Sto. Nino Children Educational Center, Montessori.
07. High school: First City Providential College formerly Francisco Homes College.
08. College: S. T. I College.
09. Residence: Francisco Homes Subdv., City of San Jose Del Monte Bulacan.
010. Color of Hair: Black.
011. Long or short hair: Short Hair.
012. Smoke: NO. even the smell.
013. Drink: Occasionally.
014. Available: After I cleaned my room. :)
015. Health freak: Yes.
016. Height: 5'1.
017. Crush: Patrick.
018. Do you like yourself: It depends.
019. Piercings: Ears.
020. Right Handed or Left Handed: Left Handed.
021. Tattoos: None.
022. First surgery: At my Stomach. :)
023. First piercing: Ears.
024. First bestfriend/s: Cherry Mae D. Esios.
025. First award: Best in Science nung Kinder. :)
026. First failure: Business Math. [Dinaya ako! Swear!]
027. First pet: Yowkang. [Chinese Dog]
028. First vacation: Antique.
029. First date: I Can't Remember eh.
030. First crush: Kristian O. Andrada. :)
031. Favorite color/s: Pink, Black, White, and Scarlett.
032. Favorite flower: Rose.
033. Favorite place: Makati City.
034. Favorite event: Reunion.
035. Favorite accessory: Watch and Earings.
036. Most influential person: God. :)
037. Most lovable person: My Parents.
038. Most hateful person: Secret. [Girl]
039. Favorite toy: My Stuff Toys. :)
040. Favorite Bag: Bag Pack.

HAVE YOU EVER TIRED. .
041. To dance modern dance: Yes.
042. To be in competition: Yes.
043. Cooking: Yes.
044. Shouting out loud: It Depends to my mood.
045. Slapping a guy's face: Yes. [Forgive and Forget]
046. Dancing in the rain: Yes. When I'm Young.
047. Crying so hard: Yes.
049. I'M Eating: Peanut.
050. I'M Drinking: Water.
051. I'M at: Our Living Room.
052. I'm about to: Thinking HIM. :)
053. Listening to: Thinking Of You by Katy Perry.
054. Food: Kahit Ano, Basta trip ng tongue ko. :))
55. Drink/s: Water, Juice, Coffee and Hot Chocolate every morning. [Love it!]
056. Color/s: Pink, Black, White and Scarlett.
057. Number/s: 16 and 29.

YOUR FUTURE
058. Want kids: Someday. :) In a Right Time and Place. :))
059. Want to get married: Of Course.
060. Careers in mind: To be a successful Manager in popular Hotel or
To be a successful Chef Cook like my Dad. :)

WHICH IS BETTER?
061. Bad boy/girl or Shy type: Tama lang. Sakto lang. :)
062. Back pack or shoulder bag: Before I using shoulder bags but this season, i choose...
BACK PACK! :)
063. Fingers or Hair: Hair.
064. Television or computer: Computer.
065. Walkman or Cellphone: Cellphone.
066. Easy-go-lucky or Adventurous: Adventurous.
067. Hot or Cold: Cold.
068. Lips or eyes: Eyes.
069. Hugs or kisses: Both.
070. Shorter or taller: Taller.
071. Flowers or chocolate: Chocolate.
072. Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic.
073. Nice stomach or nice arms: I Don't Care About That.
074. Sensitive or loud: Both.
075. IN A relationship: Yes.
076. Single or in a Relationship: In a Relationship.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant.
078. Kissed a stranger: NEVER.
079. Dead or tired: Tired.
080. Lost glasses/contacts: Contacts.
081. Ran away from home: No.
082. Liked someone younger: Yes. :)
083. Older: Yes. :)
084. Broken someones heart: I Don't Know.
085. Been arrested by a cop?: No.
086. Turned someone down: Yes.
087. Cried when someone died: Of Course.
088. Liked a friend: No.

BELIEVE IN:
089. In yourself: Slight. :))
090. Miracles: Yes.
091. Love at first sight: Yes.
092. Heaven: Yes.
093. Santa Claus: Haha. Before! But when i saw my mom, putting a candies to our sacks at the
christmas tree.. I never Believe in/about Santa Clause. Sorry :(
094. Action speaks louder than words: Yes.
095. The more you hate, the more you love: No.
096. Angels: Yes.
097. Is there one person you want to be with you right now: Yes. My Dad. :(
098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at a time?: No.
099. Do You Believe In God?: Yes.
100. Repost this. IF YOU WANT BUT YOU NEDD TO DROP A COMMENT FIRST! :)